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Recollection Along Memory Lane
Recollection Along Memory Lane

"...The most important step to ridding yourself of inferiority complex is to love yourself..."
"...The most important step to ridding yourself of inferiority complex is to love yourself..."
"...The most important step to ridding yourself of inferiority complex is to love yourself..."
"...The most important step to ridding yourself of inferiority complex is to love yourself..."

I remembered the time when I was still in http://www.habbo.com.sg (A virtual community) where I grew quite profilic and even wrote a weekly column called "Habbo and the City" (which, all of us gay men know, is basically a Sex and the City ripoff) for an official fan site. Well, the thing is, I enjoyed my short time there and actually found out that I love churning out stories every single week (please also note that within 2 months, my passion of writing stories came to an abrupt end when I just can't find enough inspiration to continue.) Ok, so last night I was walking down memory lane and decided to showcase one of my articles for you guys to read. I took the liberty to make this article more gay-friendly by changing the names of the 2 lovers into two male names. Well...See how good I am to you all! C'mon, gimme some nice hugs and kisses!

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"I am not good enough for you Jun Hao..." Markus sniffed as he averted his gaze from his boyfriend, "I don't think we should see each other anymore..."

"But I love you Mark. Will you not give this relationship another chance?" Jun Hao replied as he gently placed his hands on him.

"I am sorry Jun Hao, I...I don't know...I am sorry..." Choked up and unable to hold his tears any longer, Markus pushed Jun Hao's hands away and dashed out from the restaurant where he merged with the crowd in a busy shopping mall.

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Being in my twenties and having experienced many trials and tribulations of love and relationships (from both myself and from friends around me), I can say that this situation is pretty much evident in many of today's teens and adults. I have many friends who broke up the way Jun Hao and Markus did. That is why I must address this issue before it gets way out of hand.

Sometimes, we all feel inferior. Sometimes we all lack the confidence to face the big big world out there. Sometimes we, like Markus, feel that we are not worthy of having someone to love and hold us. This is a common feeling we all share. This is something we must stand up to, look it right in the face, and conquer it. Look at yourself in the mirror. Do not allow any negative thoughts run through your mind. Yes, everyone has flaws and weaknesses but focus on the positive side of it. Do you have a pair of sparkling eyes? Do you have leadership qualities? Are you blessed with a smooth complexion? Are you meticulous? Do you have that cute button nose or that full luscious lips people love to kiss? The most important step to ridding yourself of inferiority complex is to love yourself. Explore your body and soul. Touch yourself and open your heart. You will be surprised at how many good qualities you possess.

People will bring you down no matter what. Such is the way of this vicious world. Learn to take constructive criticisms and block out any unnecessary snide remarks from unnecessary friends. Life is too short to be so self absorbed in our short-comings. Spend quality time with your close friends whom you really trust and simply enjoy the company. Sooner or later, without you knowing it, your self confidence will have been boosted and you are ready to face the world.

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Later that night, Markus cuddled his tear-soaked pillow as memories of his happy times with Jun Hao flashed past his mind. How could he be so selfish to have acted the way he did? How could he have thought only of himself when Jun Hao's happiness depended on that decision he had made? Markus reached for his mobile phone, stared at the blank screen and hesitated for a moment. Having filled with guilt and remorse, what more can he say?

He finally gathered the courage to text him, "Forgive me. I love you."

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"You know, Markus...You should never have felt that way. I like you the way you are. That is why I courted you in the first place. This whole 'I am not worth it' thing is crap! Remember, when I say I love you, I mean it. Whether you are worthy for me or not, I make that decision. Not you. To me, you mean the world. And you are good enough for me."

Looking into Jun Hao's eyes, Markus placed his hands on around him. They walked out the restaurant after footing the bill and lingered at the sidewalk.

"I love you," Markus whispered, wrapping his arms around Jun Hao, "And you are worth more than anything money can buy."



Yours Truly,
Matt
Your Friendly Neighborhood Guy!